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Wednesday, August 16, 2006 ( 8:32 PM )
Today was extremely disastrous for me. Guess, today really sucks ...
The day was good in the morning until pe at 8am. I dunno why, i just could not do the things that i could do in the past. Cant even play floorball like i used to. Missed an easy goal. How could i have ever miss that. Guess what, after that when i went to bathe, i slipped and fell and injuired my leg and scratched my finger. Had a damn big bruise on my left thigh. Sian....
Trainning later was even worse. I start to piss everybody off especially Jason for not being able to play properly. I can't even dig a ball properly !!! My reaction was also very slow. Things which i could do with ease suddenly become my weakness like setting and spiking. Sian...
I'm sick of myself recently. Guess i really suck, I must agree. I lost all my agility, reflexes, control and i start to get cramps very often. Whats there left of me. I seriously don't think i deserve all the benefits i receive, all the leadership position i hold. Some say i pushed myself too hard, while others say i slacked. I really feel like shit now. Guess i'm just a stupid shit. Sooner or later i am going to give up being me. Its just too stressful. Right now, studies like shit, cca also like shit. What can i do well in, i'm useless...
I'm sick of this life, I just wanna scream, How could this happen to me?